Remember my last post? Well, I was down, maybe depressed, and had a lot of things going through my head. My head was messed up, and in the course of that phase I made a lot of mistakes and I also learnt a lot of lessons too.

I feel kind of better now because I think that phase is over but unfortunately I’ve entered another phase called “guilt”.

Funny how I actually had sucidal thoughts but I waved it off immediately (once beaten, twice shy ). I had other thoughts too. At a point I felt like cutting my hair and ordinarily I would never want to do that.The day I wanted to try it, I couldn’t find a scissors (Thank God). If I had successfully cut my hair, I would have regretted it.

So, yes, I said something about guilt. I’ve come to realize that everyone is going through something in life. Everyone is going through one problem or the other. Everyone struggles in their own way.
Life is full of challenges and difficulties, and no one is immune from experiencing hardship. Everyone has their own unique set of struggles and problems, whether it’s financial, emotional, physical, or mental. This is the universal human experience – a reality that unites us all in our shared vulnerability. While some may be more fortunate than others, we all face challenges that require strength and resilience to overcome.

I let my emotions get the best out of me. I shielded my eyes from the truth. I hurt some people in the process. I hurt someone who was so close to me because of my ignorance, selfishness, insensitivity, lack of trust and anger.

Acting out of emotions will cost you a lot. When I finally realized what I had done it was too late to go back in time. Words are like eggs, when it falls, you can’t put it back together again. Be careful what you say when you’re angry. Most people say, you say the truth when you’re angry but I don’t agree with that. You say things all for the purpose of hurting the other person, you don’t really mean what you say. I can attest to that.

When I finally realized the gravity of what I had done, it broke me, It shattered me and left me feeling like a bad person. It made me hate myself so much. Guilt deals with me everyday and because of how soft my heart is, it makes me want to cry.

A person that overthinks jumps into conclusion very fast. I overthink a lot and I tend to produce answers to things I am not sure of. This is something very bad and I can’t just stop it suddenly, it’s a gradual process.

Have you ever felt hurt by hurting another person? Well, that’s exactly how I feel. This is my conscience dealing with me. This is guilt fighting me.

The burdens of guilt: a weight to bear.
Guilt can be a heavy burden to bear, especially when it’s the result of something you’ve done. Guilt can manifest itself in many ways, from self-doubt and regret to shame and despair. It can lead to feelings of isolation and hopelessness. But it’s important to remember that no one is perfect, and that we all make mistakes.

When you’re down and depressed, please open up to someone, pour out your heart even though you can’t phantom what’s wrong. It helps a lot and will prevent a lot of mistakes. Don’t let depression get the best of you. If you’re an overthinker like me, wait, stop, breathe, ask questions, stop assuming things and don’t jump into conclusions. When you’re angry , take a deep breath, type that awful, painful and insultive message but don’t send it. when you eventually calm down, read that message again and see if you actually meant what you typed. When you’re angry keep quiet, don’t disrespect people and try your best to talk calmly to explain how you feel. If you’re like me that swallows a lot of emotions, please stop it. Sometimes you need to voice out and let people know how you feel.

*TO THE ONE I DISRESPECTED (you know yourself 😔)

I’m deeply sorry for the way I behaved. I should have been more respectful and I understand that my words and actions were hurtful. Please know that this was not my intention and that I regret the pain I caused you. I promise to learn from this experience and do better in the future. I value our friendship and hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I am truly sorry.”
I hope these words help to express my regret and my desire to make amends.

TO THE ONE THAT I DISRESPECTED, HURT, AND MADE TO CRY (ROCKY THE THIRD🥺😔)

I know I cannot erase the past, but I want to offer you my most heartfelt apology. I know words are not enough, but I hope you can see that I am truly remorseful and that I will do everything in my power to make things right.

I’m deeply sorry for the pain I caused you. I know that my words and actions were hurtful and that they had a profound impact on you. I know I broke your heart, and I deeply regret it. I understand that there is no excuse for what I did, and I take full responsibility for my actions. I want to apologize for the hurt and sadness I caused you, and to express my sincere remorse. I’m committed to doing the hard work to earn your forgiveness and to rebuild our friendship.
I’m so sorry for what I’ve done, and I’m determined to make it right. I love you ❤️

Finally, I want to reiterate the importance of taking the time to think before you speak or act. The words and actions you take can have a profound and lasting impact on others. It’s so important to be mindful of the power of your words and actions and to choose them wisely. I hope my story can serve as a cautionary tale and remind us all to take a moment to reflect before we speak or act. I hope my mistakes can help others learn and grow. The urge to say “Till I write again, you haven’t read the last of me” , Thank you for reading ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️